A House Is Not A Home
As the time has come for my college career to end, I have found myself to be slightly depressed at the thought of leaving campus for the summer and not returning in the fall. Its natural for a person to be side when one era in their life ends, but I find its harder for me than expected. Because when I leave IWU campus next Tuesday I won't be returning to a place that I consider home. Sure I will be moving back into the house I've lived in for the past 7 years, but to me it still isn't home. Of course it doesn't help that my parents are in the process of selling the house. Last night as I took a solitary walk around campus I realized, this campus has been my home for the past four years. It doesn't matter that I have had two different roommate, several different groups of friends, or lived in four different dorms. It is the campus as a whole that is my home. I love the fountain by the library, the "vagina" (that Amy nicknamed), the retention ponds that Es and I thought would be fun to swim in so we did, on top of the dug outs, the statues, Drama 108 in Kem, Carmin 119, Reed 316 (I think that's the right numbers), and toho 518. There are so many good memories I have the WU. Laying out by the basketball courts and rating guys with Tory. Going to Applebees for half-price appetizers with the girls (T, Micah, Jaime, Julie). Early morning donut runs. Sneaking out of Reed and then sneaking back in. The Mexican restaurants. Getting "raped" but Stacey and Rania junior year. The randomness of my suitemates. The randomness of the Freshman girls (T, Micah, Jaime, Julie). Laying on the track field freshman year doing our first roommate bonding session with Es. The late night talks with Es. The random picture times with Es. Being the unofficial assistant RA for Es. I have grown and changed so much since I first came to IWU. I can look back and see how I've changed, grown up. When I first came to IWU I was scared and all I wanted to do was go home, where I knew how to survive. But I did survive here and I've come to love it. I feel safe and comfortable on this campus. And its hard for me to leave it and head off into the literal unknown. I have come to love this campus, this school like I never expected. This is my home. The place where I really grew up (or at least attempted to). I will remember the educational and life lessons I learned in my classes. The education and life lessons learned from my friends. But as hard as it was to come to IWU and how scary it is to leave it, I know I will be okay, because I survived four years here at college. And I am a stronger, smarter, semi self-reliant person because of it. And though this life transition is going to be difficutly I will okay and I will make a new life and a new home for myself. As I close out this post I am going to give u two quotes: one from Matt Fielding (Doug Savant) as he left Melrose Place, and my modified version of Matt's quote of my leaving IWU.Matt Fielding: I had never lived anywhere like this. It's a special place, you know? Amazing people have passed through here. Some have died, some have gotten married and just moved on... But I swear it was only a moment ago I was sitting at the edge of that pool laughing with Rhonda. I'll remember them all. The old and the new. And I will always remember this place. It's where I really grew up.
Me: I have never lived anywhere like this. It's an amazing place, some special people have passed through here. Some have graduated, some are getting married and moving on. But I swear it was only a moment ago that I was star gazing with Esther, sharing our life stories and roommate bonding. I will remember them all though. The older friends and the new ones. And most of all I will always remember this place. Because it is where I really grew up.
posted by Keagan @ 1:27 PM
1 Comments:
I love you KK. :-)
This post was awesome.
Really. It was.
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